Kendra Wilkinson has combined emotions about her time on the Playboy Mansion — however she doesn't remorse it.

The Women Subsequent Door star just lately mirrored on shifting into Hugh Hefner's dwelling when she was 18 and dealing on a number of actuality exhibits originally of her profession.

"I used to be a horrible teenager," she stated in a brand new interview with the I Do, Part 2 podcast. "I used to be a runaway. I bought cocaine on the age of 15. I by no means actually had a steady life."

She continued, "And so I went on the lookout for the improper issues. I went on the lookout for darkish issues. I went on the lookout for enjoyable. And I'm not saying that every little thing I did was darkish and improper. I'm saying that it was straightforward to take that one-way ticket to L.A. into the Playboy Mansion — how weak I used to be."

Nonetheless, Wilkinson felt steady and guarded throughout her keep there. "I can truthfully look again and say that I used to be safer on the Playboy Mansion than I used to be at 15 years previous dealing medication," she stated. "So in that case, I used to be secure. I used to be in a secure surroundings. I used to be wholesome, consuming salads every single day, understanding every single day, no medication every single day."

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Wilkinson additionally acknowledges that the Playboy tradition had a long-lasting impression on her. "Was I sexualized? Completely," she stated. "Did that trigger me issues later in life? Completely. So, you already know, decisions — there are penalties for each selection you make."

She elaborated, "I wrestle nonetheless to at the present time with my relationships and my views on intercourse. And I needed to undergo a whole lot of remedy… they usually checked out me they usually're like — that is the primary time I'm admitting this — however they're like, 'You might need, like, a bit little bit of a intercourse downside. Like, you have got a bit little bit of an issue relating to pondering of intercourse.'"

When requested what sort of "intercourse downside" she meant, Wilkinson stated, "Simply unhealthy ideas — simply, like, not likely settling for a wedding and stuff like that."

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Wilkinson later added that she thinks she moved out of Hefner's dwelling on the proper time. "I left the Playboy Mansion at age 23, received pregnant, received married on the age of 23, then began my life as a spouse and a mom," she stated. "And it was the golden years of my life. And, you already know, I went from the Playboy Mansion, rapidly, to love this marriage life in a blink of a watch. And it was the fitting timing, you already know. I discovered myself simply, you already know, so bored on the Playboy Mansion. I used to be identical to, 'I'm prepared to go away this place. I'm prepared to begin a household.'"

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When evaluating the burden of starring on a tv collection to her Playboy days, she stated the previous felt way more traumatic than the latter. "Lots of people focus so much on like, 'Oh, you probably did Playboy, Playboy, Playboy,' however nobody actually focuses on what it took to really shoot a actuality TV present and what it does," she defined. "And it took each ounce of my soul. Like, that's why they name it, 'Promote the soul [to] the satan.' I bought my soul to the goddamn satan."

She continued, "I’ve a whole lot of regrets relating to that. I don't have regrets with Playboy and all that, however I’ve regrets on the place issues went with present enterprise."

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